So this is day one of my little experiment. The idea to go insult and gossip free for an entire year... 365 days... was conceived as I once again lay in bed and thought of all the insults I should have said to someone but didn't. I know that I am not the only one to have done this before... smugly murmuring all the hurtful albeit witty dispersion we have been thinking about all day into our forgiving and loyal pillows. Sadly, I have done this more times than I would like to admit and this time around I have come to realized that when it is all said and done I am the one left feeling deflated. I have never been known to let a good criticism of sarcastic remark go to waste and believe me there have been some good ones.
I would love to believe that I could wake up one morning with renewed commitment to never say a cruel word again and... abracadabra... be over it! Nope, not going to happen, in fact I may be lucky to not completely blow this experiment into smithereens in the first 72 hours. Sadly, I am the type of person that needs to do things the hard way and believe me this is going to be an uphill battle. As I am typing this I tell my son to go away because he bugs me... I never claimed to be mother of the year!
Keeping a journal has always been therapeutic so in an effort to save money on my mental health deductible I am going to keep this blog allowing me to talk it out and keep it public in the hopes that I will stay honest! So the rules of the game are as follows... no gossip behind (or in front of) any one's back and bite my tongue when I feel the need to spout out something less than complimentary about someone!
Now that being said don't think that I intend to agree with everyone I come across or not speak up when necessary. I know I can find ways of getting my point across without being mean!
One more thing... in now way, shape or form do these rules apply to celebrities or anyone participating in reality television! I believe they are asking for it when agreeing to make a fool of themselves on T.V. and come on sometimes it is just too easy and way too much fun!
My goal at the end of these 365 days is that I will be kind without having to think about it. I want my family, friends and everyone around me to know that they can trust me to have their back! I hope one day soon that you will all know that Your Name is Safe Here! ~Becky
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